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14. 05. 10 ( 11:59pm ) My very special day.
15. 05. 10
Today i went to desa park city to celebrate my friends birthday..
We had steamboat, me, hubby, coco and vincent sat in another table.. After dinner we went to the park.. Coco was teasing us.. So naughty.. Then we walk back to look for the others, things went wrong.. lala started scolding and yelling.. She's mad that we're together.. I feel so sorry for her.. But my hubby tell me not to bother about her.. so i don't care.. haha..

i miss u diary!! i lost my baby phone :( and now i'm having a touch screen but i dont like it :( i miss my sony k660i :(( i'm sick .. very sick.. so dizzy.. i'm skipping school tmr.. but i'll miss my friends.. what to do.. my immune system so damn weak.. cannot sleep cannot eat.. so miserable.. go for reflexology? does it helps? haha.. random.. the weather is changing very often.. this morning the sun rise before 7. normally it rises around 7++ .. so weird la.. i was shocked by the rain last night. i woke up in the middle of the night staring outside the window.. the thunder seems to be so close to me.. but it was just imagination.. i'm movin' on already :)) i did it! isn't it awesome? i can't forget but atleast i can let go :)) whats for dinner tonight? no appetite at all.. just feel like puking.. bad day..

Janean. Juwita. Me :DD

15 03 2010
Today , Tao, Ann, Jack, Keat, Bryan, Long, En Chong and Pet Pet came to my house, we went swimming and lunch together. Super tired after it, but i had a great time with them . Life's great with friends. Makes me not to rely on a man. Hehe. I like it this way :D

13 02 2010
Juwita Suwito's Concert
It's the concert day!! Omg! I'm soooo excited to see the flow of it! I can't wait to see souls saved! Joey went to the concert with me :) I was one of the back up singer. I like the worship. It was awesome! HAHA. I didn't go for practice but i still can blend in with 'em :) So happy :DD Haha.. Me and Nean had fun singing together with Juwita Suwito. The band was GOOD! The bassist was awesome! Haha! Me and Nean took picture with the bassist, guitarist and Juwita Suwito xDD We had fun making new friends. Haha. Me and Nean enjoyed the concert real much. Today is the day i see him again. The scenary seems like nothing has change. I'm just comforting myself i know. Haha. I feel so stupid.. Ain't I?
Hmm.. This coming friday i'm going out with Janean :D Then i'm staying over her house, Saturday follow her to church :DD Yayh!! HAHA. I'm gonna start planning now :))

Ytd night me, kok leong, josh, wendell and justin went giving out Juwita suwito's concert flyers at Centrepoint. It was my first time, but i was h appy with it, cos i manage to give out 12 flyers and most of them look interested in it ;) There's this two negro guys, they're so nice, i went to them and they thought i wanted to give them my number or something. And i tattoo'ed sports car driver, he was so friendly. I like xD!! The first guy i gave he also responded to the plyer ;) Damn nice. I'll be so damn happy if those who got the flyer from me attend the concert! HAHA!! I can't wait till that day! Joey is coming to the concert with me :D I hope she'll be save on that day ;DD I heard Juwita Suwito's songs in kok leong car last night. I like her voice! I'm gonna see her in real life! HAHA!! It's an awesome experience with them ;D

OUCH!!! My teeth's are keeling me! I can't enjoy my food at all. Damn suckish. Can't the dentist just do it once and that's it! ?? !!! Now have to suffer dunno till when.. The whether is soooo damn hot! When is it gonna rain.. Urgh..
Ohhohh! Justin Bieber! He's hawt! Sexy! I like his style. So adorable!! Ahaha! I didn't really notice till i watch his video's today. But i'm not as despo for him as tong.. She's so desperate for him.. I was talking bout the past in school today.. I now only notice i was really stupid last time.. I really don't know who to believe, i'm so confuse. Is he a good person? Sigh.. But it doesn't have anything to do with me anymore.. Ann is coming to my house tomorrow. We're going to bake. He wanna bake for his ex, he wanna show her that he can do anything for her, so sweet doh! I did once for someone, with my bare hands. I really wish he really did appreciate it. Bryan, All the best for ur competition today ;)

I just took off my rubber rings out from the teeths and have 2 metal rings on :) The process was kinda scary, i was scared that the dentist might injured my gums or something. Haha. Now i can't wait for the wire to be fix! xD I can have oat meal for breakfast ( healthy nya ), stew for lunch and ice cream for DINNER!! Haha! That's the best part. Next appointment is on 10 of March :D Another 7 days more . Haha. Despo for braces!! I neglected my friends in school today. I'm so sorry. I really don't wanna go recess with her.. I just realized that she's so snobbish. After 3 years of friendship , now u showing me the real u? U wanna make me fall into a cliff? I'm not so dumb.. I know i still have others to be there for me :) Coco made me macaroni today :D I super love her!! Appreciate it alot :D Thank You!! I'm starting to like my class now, it's fun xD But without ann, keat, bryan and coco sure boh fun wan.. Haha.. They're awesome :D Hearts 3Perkasa ;)

I miss u so much.. U are no longer my friend in fb but u appeared in my homepage today.. Why is it like this? I believe u're happier without me :) I don't know when will i see u again.. There's alot of things i wanna tell u .. But u're no longer there to listen to me anymore.. I'm moving on with life but wont be touching any relationship stuffs for this moment. I'm believing for a change :)

11. 02. 2010 [THURSDAY]
This afternoon, i have a bad feeling that something bad is gonna happen. He im me on msn, he said alot of things, but i only get one conclusion. He wants to end everything. I already expected, but i never thought it would be so fast. In the whole conversation i only appologized and ask him one question that i've longed to know, i asked him whether the profession and everything he told me was real. He say it is. I'm really grateful about it, but i promise him i'll go and not to interrupt his life anymore. I know after everything he said he just wants me to leave and make this an end. He seem to let go everything already but i can't. It's so shocking until i can't believe what he has done. He blocked me in his msn. He removed me from his facebook. Because i posted " I know u're there, u said it's stupid , but u did it " this status, he send me the last email through facebook, he said, " i really have to end this shit, there's something wrong here,i'm the one facing everything not u. I didn't enjoy my CNY at all u know? I'm not happy at all!! " I really didn't mean to make all this happen. I feel so useless when i can't takeaway the consequences u're facing now. Because it's my fault. I'm suppose to face all this not u. I really am sorry. U did really right. U deleted me from your life, i've lost the very precious thing in my life. I deserve this. I never heard u say u'll love me forever because u know u can't do it.
" You thorn my heart into pieces. You broke it once, twice. And I'm still there never giving up this hope. You'll never know how it feels inside. It's the pain you have given to me. My love towards , you'll never know. But when u're really happy, i'll show the smile even though my heart still hurts. Now i see you walk away, my smile fades away. Everything i do, i just want you to be happy. "
You're the one special guy i've met, u use to be so special to me, and now u're still buried deep inside my heart, i'll never let u out, i can't forget this past. I use to be ur angle but now i'm ur enemy. This is what i get in the end of this so called " relationship " , i put in so much love that i can't even measure. But u wasted it all. I don't know what can i do know, but i'll still continue to uphold u in a prayer every night. I'll ask God to take away my happiness and give it to u, i'll exchange my happiness with ur unhappiness. IMY.